"I like you a lot. I want you to be with me all the time. I like your smile your humor. The way you look when you wake up.. smiling bemusedly at this world looking out with wonder.. The way you snuggle before you sleep everything.. And I wanna see it everyday!"

" Are you proposing me?

" What does it look like some circus?"
" Don't you think something is missing? Try again!"
" Trust you to spoil my moment! Damn you!"
" What the heck! You keep blaming me! You can't even propose properly and expect me to accept it?"

" Okay. Let me try again. Meera, I know most of our life we will end up fighting with each other. But without all these fights I wouldn't have any entertainment. So for my lifetime tax free entertainment please marry me!"

" Sandy honey! I really expected better than that from a poet like you. I am not gonna let you ruin my once in a life moment like this.. I won't marry you!"

"What the fuck do you want to hear anyways?"

" How about I love you ?"

" Is that not what I am saying?"

" Is it? when did you say it dick head?"

Suddenly Sandy starts laughing.

"You scared me Meera! He hugs her and says " I love you baby! Marry me!"

Meera whispers yes as they melt in each others arms.

" See??? Was it that hard to say ? btw I liked them poetic words can you repeat it?"

" Not in an million years!"

Meera raises her eyebrows.

" every second honey.. My heart beat.. my breath everything would repeat that countless times for you! You are the best thing that could ever happen to me!"

" Owww baby! I love you so much"

Chapter 1.

Today Meera had no interest in going to the office. It was an occasion she dreaded.. namely the official party which she cannot excuse out of.. her future depended on it.. And some inspired romantic dickheaded higher up *screwup* has decided it would have a couple entry leaving her scampering for a date. And all her efforts didnt yield any results. Her love being non existent and all her friends letting her down... she didnt blame them for not coming . Her office parties were boring! .......

Chapter 2.

In silence I seek answers
For questions unformed
Is it any wonder
that Silence is all i get ?


These words went through Meera's mind as she relaxed in her chair in Roxanne's.. one of the bustling salon in the city!

Chapter 3


Sandy was late. The evening traffic of Friday filled with eager crowd and rampant jams was making him pissed than he already was. If he could he wouldn't have even attended this party. But he knew he cannot miss the party he organized. On top of that he would be going with that crazy girl who mesmerized him for some reason and exasperated thoroughly. And she managed to do both just by existing! He knew she is going to give him hell... he was looking forward to it more than the damned party! Hell he would love to be with her alone.. teasing... flirting.. making love...


Chapter 4

"What the hell was that?", she asked surprised.

"what was what?". he asked shortly.. as if telling don't ask.. there was this controlled fury in his eyes. she wondered why.... but keeps quiet.

Soon they reach her house. Very soon it seemed. she waits for him to stop... but he doesn't. he keeps driving faster.

"What the hell are you doing? My flat is left behind", she asks with concern.. for not just herself.
He stops the car. puts his head on the steer. "I am sorry." he says not looking at her.. " But can you spend some time with me tonight?" he asked between the teeth.. as if forcing them out


Chapter 5

There are times in life when you do things in the intimacy of the night . It seems alright.. just perfect but in the light of the day it seems so foolish to have done that. but then if you didn't.. don't you think you would lose the essence of life?

It is such moments that are remembered long after the time has passed by.. that defines life .. and yet in the light of the sun.. you regret and still secretly pine for it...

"What the hell was that?", she asked surprised.

"what was what?". he asked shortly.. as if telling don't ask.. there was this controlled fury in his eyes. she wondered why.... but keeps quiet.

Soon they reach her house. Very soon it seemed. she waits for him to stop... but he doesn't. he keeps driving faster.

"What the hell are you doing? My flat is left behind", she asks with concern.. for not just herself.
He stops the car. puts his head on the steer. "I am sorry." he says not looking at her.. " But can you spend some time with me tonight?" he asked between the teeth.. as if forcing them out

" What??" she asked.. imagining them together in bed...

" I mean not at my place.. we can go to the beach and talk"

" I can't be alone tonight! I want someone"

he wants someone not me in particular.. not to his place....

She said yes. " I know what you mean.. though I dunno why.. I will stay..." She said with a smile

" I suppose you need reasons?" he asked feeling better already.. he didn't want to be alone in an empty flat thinking about it all the time. He knew he will get drunk and do something stupid... besides that empty flat kinda haunted him.. esp on days like today...

"Not if you don't want to tell", she smiled at him reassuringly.
"There is nothing much to tell actually.. If you don't mind... I would like to go to the beach first. we can talk there.. I kinda love the sea.. do you ?"

"Me too" she said shyly, though she didn't know why she did so.

She was so unobtrusive. If it was some other girl she would have tried to pry out the details.. if not would have smothered him under her mothering instincts. Somehow she knew just what was right for him.. he liked her very much at this moment... very much so.. suddenly, he didn't want to be with her alone in the night..

"How insensitive of me! You must be really tired. Forgive me! I will drop you home" he said as he turned the car.

"Should have felt these pangs before we reached the shore. Now forget it I wanna stay around for sometime!"

She wasn't looking at him... she was looking at the sea ..seemed genuinely happy!

"Damn! I stay so near to the beach but i never visit! thank you for bringing me here! I had forgotten how wonderful I feel...."

She removed her sandals put it inside the car and started walking on the sand.. then smelt the fresh air full of faint wooden smoke and some exotic fragrance of forgotten flowers

Sandy couldn't take his eyes off her.. like some water fairy she moved in water.. frolicking all alone.. she turned into a lil kid.. the usually clam and collected woman suddenly turned into a small kid! he so wished he had a camera... Damn! she would photograph beautifully!

And then she turned and invited him over.. she was all woman then... her naughty eyes invited.. her wet lips quivered... She drives me crazy! Sandy thought!.. But what a hell of a ride! Soon he joined her... his worries forgotten..


"That was fun!" Meera said. She hadn't enjoyed so much since a long time

Yes it was he said smiling onto her as he crashed besides her..... "Feels wonderful"

for sometime both sat quietly listening to the sound of the sea.... they never knew who made the first move or how.. soon they were holding hands... eyes not looking at each other and yet hands saying things that mind refused to acknowledge and eyes refused to reflect..... The silence suddenly was too heavy.. with pent up desires and emotions. heady emotions that was slowly casting a spell on them... spell of intimacy that was more drunken than the wine that they had in the evening...

"So what happened in the party tonight?" she asked just to break this tension..

"Nothing much and a lot too.. depends on what you want to see"

"Tell me what you see"

"Alright! I guess you know about 'Ad' "

"No I don't! you tell me!"

"Okay... We were what you can call 'langotiya yaar' Childhood friends... we were together always.. and then well I dunno how to say.."

He spilled out the whole story.. Meera couldn't help but see how hurt he was.. somehow this made him even more special for her... here is a guy who is sensitive and he doesn't think I am any less than him just coz I am a woman God! I am falling in love!


Sandy and Ad were friends from childhood.. diverse in personality and yet the bond was too deep to ever break or so they thought. They did everything together.. from school to college to work place... they were together.. Both good at studies both handsome with pick of girls they wanted... It was never an issue.. they liked different kind of girls...

Things always would have been beautiful.. if it wasn't for the onsite promotion.. Both had got the opportunity however, Sandy had to stay back to take care of his mom.. Not wanting to spoil his friends happiness, coz there was a swirl of parties going around, he doesn't tell him. And yet, he expects Ad to drop by when he comes to know about the illness but Ad never does. This strains their relation.. and they never contact each other after that..

seemingly a small issue.. however, when proud hearts hurt, even small crack is enough to topple it.. and their ego won't let it to mend...

Meera decides, she will clear this misunderstanding.. really they are being bull headed and she says as much to him

"You are too optimistic Meera. I have always noticed it"
"So you notice me.. and that too always.. interesting" ' Omigawd! I am flirting.. is this me? where did this come from'

"Ha ha ha... I notice you a lot honey.. else how can I pick at you ?", he replied. Pleasantly surprised that she dropped the topic so quickly..

"So what else did you notice about me?" Meera asks, laughingly at him

She was flirting! How the hell did this happen? Damn now he has to kiss her.. he just has to taste her lips... the night the sea and she.. her scent thats uniquely hers which he already learnt to identify.. was affecting him.. he just had to kiss her...

"Hello?" she asked when he didnt reply. He took her face in his hands.. came close enough for her to hear his heart beat.. n to feel his hot breath... he looked into her eyes.. he saw fear.. 'Good! I am afraid too so are you but this is bigger than us' he thought...

He kept looking at her face.. it was making her uncomfortable.. not that she didn't like it.. she did.. but the proximity with him was making her go week in her knees.. she wanted to lie down.. atleast sit...

He said, touching her hair whorl that was on her face.. "I like your silken strands.. esp when they cover your face... reminds me of night in the day . I love your eyes they are so eloquent so many emotions it expresses.. and I love your smile.. it lights up the whole world.. how can you smile from the heart ? So giving without any rancor? And I love your anger... the spitting words the way you keep your hands on the desk.. tapping it lightly unconsciously while you are thinking or the way your eyes become dreamy sometimes.. I wonder if you think of me.. "

Meera was lost in his words.. she never knew who made the first move.. but their lips touched and it was like the whole world not fit just right .. as if she had reached where she wanted.. which was perfectly stupid ofcourse! this guy might have kissed many girls and might have said the same thing to all of them

Somehow everything paled suddenly... she didnt know what to do and then he kissed her again.. this time it wasn't tentative.. and it was surely kiss of life.. Meera knew now.. it doesnt matter if he had kissed other girls.. this kiss was her due... coz it was just right thing to do simply.. she let go of her inhibitions and let her emotions go wild .. for she knew now.. that she loved this man.. and for always will whether he does or not... she always will..

And then he said.."And I love your soft rosy bud lips.. for days I thought how it would feel to kiss them.. it feels just perfect"

She smiled right back at him and they kissed again.....

Continued from here

All day Sandy was in a weird mood. Many a times he caught himself day dreaming. This was so not like him.. He wanted to know how it would be if he kissed her.. He wanted to taste her... He still couldn't forget how snugly she fit.. in his arms.. and he wanted to teach her a lesson too. He decided tonight in the party he will kiss her.. He wanted her to want it.. to beg for it.. be vulnerable...

Continued from here

In silence I seek answers
For questions unformed
Is it any wonder
that Silence is all i get ?


These words went through Meera's mind as she relaxed in her chair in Roxanne's.. one of the bustling salon in the city! Roxanne was a friend and her personal stylist from her college times... all she has to do is relax.. Roxanne ew what she liked.. Meera was in safe hands.. generally while Roxanne worked on her she would dream sweet innocent dreams.. Roxanne didnt like to be disturbed.. but today Meera couldn't help but think about Sandy... and of their first meet or lets say their first fight.......

Meera was the newest recruit and was intimidated by the large establishment where no one had time for any one... One week since her joining the company she hardly knew whom to contact when her computer wasnt loading up.. She was struggling to make it start without making it apparent.. but it was not working. Thats when Sandy sauntered in.. She had noticed him before ofcourse! His a-mile-wide smile.. that laugh-with-me-all-of-you-laugh.. so inviting.. her eyes followed him all day through.. hoping to be part of his inner circle hoping to be friends.. He wasn't very handsome.. but there was this earthiness in him that attracted.. Silky hair that never stayed where it should.. always falling on his face.. that lazy slouch as if he had no care in this world.. and yet she knew.. he was one of the most hardworking guy she has met.....

"There is the number for the IT guy" Sandy said, pointing to the stick up note on her cubicle. Meera felt stupid and mumbled a thanks . She couldnt believe how star struck she was! Acting all coy and shy...

" You can use my computer while IT guy fixes it. I have a meeting to attend and its free.. I will call Pratik for you.." Sandy continued.

" I will wait thank you."

" Suit urself. Its there if you like" He said and moved away.

Meera was bored waiting for Pratik, the IT guy, who took his sweet time coming around. Slowly she moved to Sandy's computer. Simply going through pictures.. checking out the songs and applications and all ... thats when she saw a dairy on the desktop.

She deliberated if she should read it or not.. She was curious so she justified by thinking that if he wanted to hide he wont keep it on the desktop surely ? So she opened it... She saw the first poem..

In silence I seek answers
For questions unformed
Is it any wonder
that Silence is all i get ?

She was hooked.. so much emotion.. She felt as if its her life in his words... she couldn't stop!

As I traverse through the inroads
Of my rambling mind
Noise ..Noise everywhere..It comforts
Voices from forgotten past.. Explodes!
What am I trying to find ?

There I see a door that I avoid
Door that holds all the answers I seek
Yet always am afraid to reach
To open.. afraid to find
What if there is nothing but a teeming void ?

This was the first poem she read.. and she still remembers it.. even after 2 years verbatim.. she remembered.. especially on days when she feels lonely... It was as if he understood her heart.. It was comforting to know.. there is someone who knows what she goes through...even if that person never would like her.....

Voices in my head
Do they ever dread
Silence... unreachable

In some corner of my heart
hidden under many layers
A lost child.. Some dreams thwarted...


" What do you think you are doing ?" Roxanna wailed.. jerking Meera to reality! " I have to do this all over again. Can't you sit still ? First of all you take no appointment and then you have a deadline of few hours and then you dont even co operate! How could you do this to me?

Roxanne took her job seriously and chastened Meera kept still by the time roxanne was done. She knew Roxanne will do a spectacular job whether she co operated or not. But she knew its not good to irritate Roxanne. If she had time she would have teased ..like she had done many a times before.. but she didn't have time so she settled back again. Soon she was back to that day when someone else said the same words..

" What do you think you are doing ?" A cold voice said in almost whisper.

"You scared me!" Meera said taken aback.

" Hey I read your poems. They are simply amazing! Wow! Can I read more of your works please ? I know I shouldnt have but am so glad I did it! You are too good!" Meera gushed with her compliments. She kept talking as he kept becoming more livid by the moment.

After few moments she realized he is not as amused as she is and became silent. Then he said " What makes you think I wanted you to read my PERSONAL diary? "

" But it was on the desktop"

" Yes.. it was on my desktop... I asked you to use my computer not read my diary.. Can't you understand what diary means?"

" Look I am really sorry if you didnt like to share your poems. Please forgive me. I didnt mean to pry"

" Why don't you stuff your sorry and return to your desk gal ? Looks like your comp is fixed. " He said offhandedly.. The more she apologized the more rude he became.. atlast he said.. will you go please? I have work to do!

Meera was never as insulted as that!. She was wrong but not so much as to create this big scene.. She hated him since that day.. and like beetle in the bottle.. he has been bugging her ever since! Talk about keeping grudges.. he is like heights!


Since that day Meera decided to give back all she gets.. somehow they both have started liking this sparring.. the only thing Meera didn't understand is how he can be so sweet to everyone.. but her.. those first few days.. she expected to feel lonely.. Surprisingly many people sympathized with her and became her friends... Esp Rhea...she was like " What the hell! He keeps boring us with his poems.. and when finally someone is genuinely praising him.. He is a weirdo" This brought a smile on her face.. Coz rhea was her bestest friend in the world.. her twin soul.. her soul buddy.. all the adjectives in the world were less to describe Rhea.. Mama bear.. comedienne sweetheart.. everything coupled in one big package.. Rhea was beautiful and had a busy social life.. she tried hooking up Meera countless times.. Life was synonymous with fun for Rhea.. She knew Rhea would be shocked out of daylights to see her with Sandy.. thinking about that lifted Meera's spirits like hell.. It wont be a bad evening after all..

Meera thanked Roxanne.. she was distracted and Roxanne was miffed. Meera knew she has to make amends for her behavior.. Saying sorry in the thoughts she rushed home ...

Next Chapter

Today Meera had no interest in going to the office. It was an occasion she dreaded.. namely 'The annual party' which she cannot excuse out of.. her future depended on it.. And some inspired romantic dickheaded higher up * read screwup* has decided it would have a couple entry only leaving her scampering for a date. And all her efforts didnt yield any result. Her love life was non existent and all her friends too let her down... she didnt blame them for not coming . Her office parties were boring!

Meera kept thinking how to get out of this quagmire.. as she walked through the corridor. The lift didnt work.. making her mood even more worse than it already was!

" Sorry honey! I would have loved to come with you but Rohan asked me out one month back!" Sally's high pitched voice echoed through the corridor..followed by whispers that ended with a giggle

"Naughty boy! alright!" Sally continued just as Meera entered the room to witness a sloppy kiss.

"Let me not disturb you. " Meera said shortly..... glaring pointedly at him! She woudn't look at Sally. She was sure she would blush in embarassment. It was better to be angry and it was easy to be angry on him!

' Great way to start the day! He just had to be here to watch me squirm!' Meera thought while he smiled amusedly. A lazy languid smile which invites you to return it..but she knew this smile was deceptive.. the guy behind was cold.. stone cold...

Sally was too embarrassed to linger around... She quickly walked out of room quickly leaving them alone together.

Sandy was not in good mood. He didn't have a date for the evening and to add to it the kiss was ended by this prissy lady... He wanted to let it out... to fight with someone.. and she seemed a good option...

He turned to Meera and said, " Its my day alright! While others get dates all I get is a sloppy kiss that gets interrupted by a rude lady"

Meera acted not to notice thinking that he would get the pointer and leave but he had other plans. Sandy came near Meera and repeated again pointedly.

" Atleast you got a kiss! Look at me!" Meera quipped.

Sandy was just about to say something rude.. but couldn't do anything but smile.

" Why don't you complete that kiss for me ? After all I am entitled for that!" , Sandy asked mock seriously.

Generally, This is when Meera would get angry and the fight would start. However, today she realized that Sandy can be answer to all her problem.She could get a date and be assured that he wouldn't hang around her or expect her to primp and smile. She wouldnt have to beg her friends.. or fend off desperate attempts of some random stranger that she would have eventually picked up! Besides the gossip mills would run over time and in the meanwhile she can make his life a hell...

So ,with an almost flirtatious and mischievous smile, she replied " A kiss is too paltry.. you have got urself something even better. A date! Pick me by 7:00. "

" Ah this is soon becoming my lucky day . Wouldnt I just love going out with you ?"
" Gee! I would love to be alone with you and do amazing lil things..naughty things.... Like we are here now.. I would so love to give you a demo"

Sandy said as he moved closer and placed his hand on her shoulder and pulled her close. However, his tone was sarcastic to show how deliberate this is.

" Ah so much chatter and no action.. So if you excuse me..." Meera said as she stamped his foot with her heels " I have shopping to do" She pushed him and went out. Leaving him howling in pain.

Sandy was left stranded as she strode right out of the door. He was furious and the pain slowly pierced through his consciousness... He was shocked to feel this attraction for her... and as always took refuge in anger.
He was sure to make her pay.. He would publically make her suffer! he decided...that shrew! No gal ever talks to him like that!

The anger didnt last for long.. All through the day he found himself thinking about her wonderful smile.. a smile that lights the room when it starts, a smile straight from heart. She is not at all bad looking at all if you ignore that bulging fat! She is sweet down to earth and funny.... But she always rubbed him the wrong way..like now and yet he always seeked her..He liked talking to her fighting with her.. He wouldnt admit but he liked her more than he was comfortable with. '

I should bet my brains checked' Sandy thought angrily. the question was who he was angry with....himself or her...



Meera went out of the room and stood in the corner for sometime to let her erratic heart beat stop. She's crazy for sure! How can her body react to him that way when he is systematically insulting her ? Really its not like he is some greek god or anything!

She was about to let him kiss her. He mesmerized her from the start.Since the day she joined. She wished so much to be his friend.. however.. their relation started with a wrong foot and stayed that way till date. She is no longer sure what she feels for him.. Its a mixture of respect liking and yet she hated the very mention of his name!.. He always made her nervous and unsure.

She was determined to stun him! Its time to let Roxane do her magic she decided. She would tantalize him all evening and then triumphantly go home she decided.

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