What is this need for company when I actually dont want to talk??

I wanna be around but yet not talk to anyone.. who said there is no contradictions in nature!

I think i am one bundle of contradiction!

I wonder why do i have pressing need for company.. but when i get it.. like i was talking to one of my friend,.... i actually didnt want to talk and i logged off!!

I wanted to blog for so long.. so many post in my mind.. but never felt like putting it in words.. I have so many conversations in my mind... wid real n imaginary ppl.. but when it comes to reality.. i hardly wanna have any..

Y is it so?